Fear Is An Illusion


Tonight I was laying in bed and just could not get to sleep. I knew that I wanted to be somewhere. I know that I have a calling to help people. Thoughts like: "There's a child who needs rescue. A man who is cold on the streets and a woman who sleeps alone and afraid. There is an elderly person lost in the street. My "sheep dog" ears go up and I know my calling is out there to do something about it. Now is my time to prepare for these days.

"Fear is an illusion." (Source)

Because I am not the largest person out there, I know building my strength and endurance is the key to survival against any opponent. I also know that to sharpen the mind is also very important, but tonight I was restless. When I can't sleep, it's usually around 3:00am that I decide to get out of bed and do push ups and sit ups. I also lift a few wights and move things that are heavy around to supplement my efforts.

"For your muscles -- in fact, for every cell in your body -- the source of energy that keeps everything going is called ATP. Adenosine triphosphate (ATP) is the biochemical way to store and use energy."  (Source)

I literally feel the ATP leaving my arms when doing push ups. I generally push myself until I can't go any further. I don't know if that is safe or not, but until I find out differently, I'll stick to that.

I decided I needed some added motivation, so I found this cool video. In it, I learned to repeat these words when in need to move to the next step, "I Can. I Will. I Must."

Now, I don't claim to be an expert when it comes to working out. In fact, I don't really enjoy it. I know that doing it yields positive results. I'm learning the balance of what it really means to work out. I don't have time for the gym or social work outs, so I try to do simple things alone when I can. Running is something I will work on in the future. This is a website where I can write about things for myself. If something I ramble on about helps, I am humbly glad for you ( the reader).

I now crave Popeyes fried chicken.